Take a seat and enjoy the weird world of me
posted by OutLaw at 9:30 AM
Over half the world lives in poverty!
posted by OutLaw at 2:13 PM
So it’s been ? weeks since uni finished, in fact I shall be starting again in September Insha’Allah. I am looking forward to it as it’s pretty boring at home. First year at uni was enjoyable but I hated it at the same time. I suppose I hated the environment but loved what I was studying – Al-lughah al-arabiyah. It’s a shame I’m not studying it anymore, I could have been preparing to jet off to Egypt right now, and if I had been the same person I was a year ago I would probably be going, but alhamdulillah that’s not gonna happen anymore. And though a part of me tells me I am letting go of the most exciting/important opportunity in my life, most of me knows that it’s for the best. It just increases my desire of making hijrah.
So I won’t be studying Arabic anymore at uni, that doesn’t mean I should stop studying it all. I made a plan at the start of summer to carry on with the Arabic. Review the stuff I have done, go through the other chapters of my Arabic book. And well for a while I did (a week to be exact) – I went through the vocabulary lists, reminded myself of the grammar, spoke to everyone (including myself) in Arabic. To improve my writing (well that was my excuse) I used to always write English messages in Arabic for my sister to read on my whiteboard like: يو سمل سو باد! stupid stuff like that. I even made an Iraqi friend (even if it was a 10yr old). I spent an afternoon talking to her in Arabic and even though she didn’t know much fusHah (I was teaching her :D) it helped a lot cos I dont get the chance to do a lot of speaking. It was all going well until I starting to slack. And now… well now I have forgotten it all! :(
I bought a book ages ago, before I knew any Arabic at all, in a bid to teach myself. Because I didn’t understand any of it, I left it to gather dust on my bookshelf. Today I noticed it, lying there neglected. I picked it up and had a flick through it and it was a good read. I love Arabic grammar, its SOOO hard, but SOOO interesting at the same time. Most of it made sense to me and if I made an effort it would benefit me a lot! It explains Qur’aanic grammar and so has references to the Qur’aan which is good. Also I am forgetting the grammar, which is fundamental to learning Arabic. If I let myself forget it completely, the past year of spending ages in the library trying to figure out roots of words and memorising the numerous different forms of a verb would all have been a waste of time!
Need to be a geek and start learning.
posted by OutLaw at 2:44 PM
'We will never choose you above the clear proofs that have come unto us, and above Him Who created us. So decree what you will decree, for you can only decree what touches the life of this world.' [20:72]
This is the response of the magicians of Firawn, who after seeing the clear proofs from Allah turned to Islaam. Subhan’Allah it’s amazing how Allah guided them. One minute they were allies of Firawn and the next they were prostrating to the All Mighty. See how Allah implanted in their hearts such faith that within minutes of belief they answered to Firawn with such firmness?
Imagine someone saying to you that they would hurt or even kill you for your belief in Allah. At that moment would you have the courage to answer back? Would you have the courage to say the words of the magicians? To have trust in Allah and know that no matter what happens it is by His will. No doubt you would feel fear, maybe in your heart you would know that if they killed you, you would have died fisabilillah, but you would certainly feel fear. Because this Ummah lacks the Imaan of those magicians.
The signs are so many, each ayaah in the Qur’aan is a clear proof from Allah, but instead of prostrating ourselves to Allah, the All Mighty, you see us bowing down to the Firawns of today. We have busied ourselves with this dunya, distracted by its false splendour. Rather than magic, the Firawns of today fool the masses with democracy, capitalism, socialism and every other system of rule other than by the laws of Allah. Today the Ummah is oppressed but it is to the oppressor that we look to for help. Our lands are occupied and we run to the UN for resolutions. The kuffar have made it clear, you are either with them, or with the Muslims. Who have we chosen?
This Ummah was the greatest and now it has become the weakest. Forget jihad, we don’t even have the Imaan to speak out like the magicians did.
Wasalaam
posted by OutLaw at 10:21 AM
Asalaamu Alaikum,
Insha’Allah you are well
Right now I’m sat listening to Qur’aan recitations by Muhammad Siddique al Menshawee. Masha’Allah, he’s a top recitor. Good stuff! Puts my troubled heart at rest…
Things have been pretty hectic the past couple of days. I have been babysitting loads of annoying kids, whose immaturity makes you want to scream at times. I have also been caught up in cultural crap passed of as Islaam and gotten the usual stick from family members. Its one of those things that you don’t know whether you should laugh or cry. They think that I am being brainwashed by some wahaabi dude and just don’t get my way of thinking, and I just can’t see where they get some of their dodgy-ness from. *sigh*
I have felt really down for the past couple of weeks. I look around me and hate my surroundings. I daydream of making hijrah and getting the hell outta here. So much kufr and deviancy really gets you down. It’s the little things that I bet most people in Muslim countries don’t think of that I long for. I imagine myself in a village in
My imaan has suffered a massive blow. I started these holidays positively. My imaan was not up there, but I was happy, if you get me. I prayed and the tears fell, I felt close to my creator, I felt fear… but now, I just feel empty. Just thinking about how I was just a couple of weeks ago makes me wanna cry. Where is my khushoo, where is my fear… where is my imaan?? I try so hard to pray with humilty. I try and try… but it’s not enough. That empty filling is not filled. I don’t know, I feel so crap.
Death…
Wherever you are, death will find you out, even if you are towers built up strong and high. [4:78]
It’s the only certainty in life, but I swear, we are so wrapped up in this dunya, you’d think there was no Day of Judgement. When someone passes away, it is a reminder from Allah (swt) that one day u too are gonna die. One day, you’ll be lying in a hole in the ground, surrounding by nothing but dirt. For the one who has died, that’s it, they cant do anything. But what about us? Why don’t we take heed? This dunya is only a place where we collect as much good deeds as we can and it’s the hereafter that we long for… Jannah. But do we think that yeh we lead a chillers life and then on that day, Allahs gonna rewards for doing crap all?
To Allah we belong and to Him we shall return [2:156]
Please remember, first those Muslims who are suffering at the hands of the kuffar, those in Kashmir, Chechnya, Iraq, Palestine, Lebanon and the whole Muslims Ummah in your duas, and then if its not too much to ask, I humbly ask you to make dua for this sister. Jazaak Allah khaire. May Allah bless you all, keep you steadfast.
posted by OutLaw at 2:56 PM
Asalaamu Alaikum
Insha’Allah you are in the best of health and Imaan
Could it be, that you can feel tranquillity,
staring at the starry sky
Whilst just across the land,
you can almost hear the oppressed ones cry
posted by OutLaw at 3:06 PM
Subhan’Allah what a day! Most of the day the sun was out and it was blistering hot. And with the heat, came the usual crap, the kuffar come out wearing next to nothing, people gather in the streets, stereos turned up high.
And now…? Now there is thunder and lighting! Every now and then, I see a flash of light and then the ground almost shakes from the roaring thunder. It reminds me of
Nay, thunder repeateth His praises, and so do the angels, with awe: He flingeth the loud-voiced thunder-bolts, and therewith He striketh whomsoever He will..yet these (are the men) who (dare to) dispute about Allah, with the strength of His power (supreme) [13:13]
Imam Ahmad recorded that Salim bin `Abdullah narrated that his father said that the Messenger of Allah used to say upon hearing the thunder and thunderbolts, O Allah! Do not kill us with Your anger, nor destroy us with Your torment, and save us before that.'' [This Hadith was recorded by At-Tirmidhi, Al-Bukhari in his book Al-Adab Al-Mufrad, An-Nasa'i in `Amal Al-Yawm wal-Laylah, and Al-Hakim in Al-Mustadrak.]
When `Abdullah bin Az-Zubayr used to hear thunder, he would stop talking and would supplicate, "All praise is to He Whom Ar-Ra`d (thunder) glorifies and praises, and so do the angels because of His awe.'' He would then say, "This is a stern warning to the people of earth.'' Malik collected this Hadith in Al-Muwatta', and Al-Bukhari in Al-Adab Al-Mufrad.
Imam Ahmad recorded that Abu Hurayrah said that the Messenger of Allah said,Your Lord, the Exalted and Most High, said, `Had My servants obeyed Me, I would have given them rain by night and the sun by day, and would not have made them hear the sound of the Ra`d (thunder).')
Allah's statement,
He sends the thunderbolts, and therewith He strikes whom He wills,
indicates that He sends thunderbolts as punishment upon whom He wills, and this is why thunderbolts increase as time comes to an end.
[Taken from Tafseer Ibn Katheer]
Wa'Alaikum Salaam
posted by OutLaw at 1:24 PM